... AND IN THE END

Originally published 9/25/2011

"DON'T FUCK WITH ME FELLAS, THIS AIN'T MY FIRST TIME AT THE RODEO"

Joan Crawford

In light of Jeff Ackerson's response,  THIS is the LAST STRAW!!! As agreed, I sent him a preview of the blog postings involving him for his feedback. I kept my word.  It was understood that if he had questions or problems with it we could agree to discuss it as adults.  He started 'name calling'  and avoided the subject.  I then received another e-mail in which he states, "please stop harassing me. no more emails. go away.your out of control."

So THIS posting is for him, his lack of integrity and his buddies:

I am NOT a victim!  

VICTIM'S DON'T FIGHT BACK. I'VE ALWAYS FOUGHT BACK. My intention has always been to see this 'THING' all the way through to the end! The END meaning a final resolution through the CRIMINAL COURT system AND the FEDERAL COURT system,  for however long that takes.   

And, in the END, I will see to it that NOT ANOTHER WOMAN suffers from the public scrutiny, abuse and humiliation I have had to endure through my workplace, my Union and my Community via the internet by man boys who exist without a sense of dignity or respect for themselves and others and with waaay too much time on their hands. 

In the END, It'll be me living in the mansion up on the hill while you small minded piglets swill off your 20 ouncer's or fortified wine while waiting in a line somewhere for week old worm infested food. 

If ya don't have the brains or even the common decency to address someone who is sincerely trying to make things better then keep your trap shut!

If the only way you know of debating or resolving conflict is through NAME CALLING then you and your 'Rantings' brotherhood of ignorant red necks deserve each other.

Chris Day refers to me as a "piece of shit" and that people "are in fear of me"

Jeff Welch refers to me as a "bitch, pathetic, lesbian, psychotic and 'him'"

Al Margulies/aka 'Rantings of a Trimet Bus Driver' refers to me as, "Obsessive/compulsive, whack job, paranoid schizophrenic, who makes life miserable for numerous people at Trimet."

John Olsen says I "threatened to castrate" him as well as submitted several other reports about me to HR regarding his sexual Orientation which were investigated and found unsubstantiated. A separate posting is in the works for him (and Day) and their 13+ HR write-ups.

Dan Booker tells co-workers that I "Don't like Gay men." 

Punkrawker 4783 says my blog is "crap and I crave attention"

Jeff Ackerson says I'm "obsessed" and makes fun of me by calling me, "Angry Ellen". He accuses me of "SPREADING ANGER AND DISCONTENT" and "harassing him plus being out of control" regarding an agreement we both reached at the August 14th ATU meeting.  

This is just the tip of the iceberg. 

The list of names and name calling is enormous.

These man boys, without ever having had an actual conversation or life experience with me, (except Al) seem to believe it's OK to assault my character, publicly.  Do they beat and kick their wives, children and dogs when no ones looking?  

Each one tries to 'out do' the other.  They are a formed 'hate group' of unproductive  abusive man boys feeding off the ignorance and hatred of each other. Not one of them has an interest in living a positive, productive and nurturing life.  I had a friendship with Al several years ago but ended it just after his blog 'took off'.  I do not know any of these other men.  Their perceptions of me are based strictly on rumor and innuendo. 

YOU HAVE BELITTLED, LIED AND BROUGHT MUCH DISCONTENT TO MY LIFE AND WORKPLACE.  BECAUSE OF YOU OUR CO-WORKERS DON'T KNOW WHO IS SAFE TO TALK WITH ANYMORE. YOU HAVE MADE A PUBLIC MOCKERY OF EVERYTHING THAT SHOULD BE SACRED AND RIGHT IN THE WORLD AND PARTICIPATE IN THINGS THAT ARE EVIL AND DESTRUCTIVE TO OTHERS.

Yes Jeff,  I WAS angry - many times. "Angry Ellen" So what?!  Sometimes I'm angry and sometimes I'm hurt and sad and depending on which day of the week it is,  I can be happy and all smiley and yet other times intense and serious. But right now at THIS VERY MOMENT - I'm TOTALLY ENRAGED!  That's who I am Jeff.  I come with emotions.  They're mine and I celebrate and embrace them.  All of 'em.  Imagine, a real live breathing feeling human being who isn't afraid to be who she is where she is. That's my integrity!  I hear a different drum. I don't succumb to anyone neither do I look towards others for acceptance or approval unless it's from those I respect.  So if you don't like "Angry Ellen" you can just - fucking - lump  -  it!

WHAT YOU HAVE NEVER BOTHERED TO FIND OUT ABOUT ME IS THAT I AM A KIND GENTLE AND LOVING SPIRIT. AN HONEST DECENT HARD WORKING HUMAN BEING. I AM A COMPASSIONATE GIVING AND NURTURING INFLUENCE TO MANY WHO HAVE FAR LESS THEN I.  I AM POSITIVE PRODUCTIVE AND PASSIONATE ABOUT THOSE THINGS WHICH INTEREST ME. I AM JUST AS MUCH A PART OF THIS UNIVERSE AS YOU AND DESERVE THE SAME AMOUNT OF COURTESY AND RESPECT.

Rantings' blogger Margulies reported to HR that I had made slanderous and disparaging remarks about him in one (or several) of the articles I wrote.  The HR interviewer slid about an inch of paperwork over to me. This blog posting was on top.  During the investigative interview she made no mention of disparaging or slanderous remarks. She didn't tell us what post she was referring to.  She spent the majority of time instead discussing a screen shot I posted of Rantings, insisting it was a recording I made of him from his home.  She refused to answer questions.